Sometimes it seems all I think about is food and eating. Yes, I'm counting my points. Yes, I'm losing weight. Yes, I'm a third of the way to my goal.
But. Every day is hard. I put on a happy face. Do the best I can. Pray.
But. Doubts creep in. I'm approaching a point in my weight loss beyond which I have not traveled in over 20 years. Can I break through the barrier?
Last night I "stressed ate" a bowl of baby carrots. I wanted a maragarita. So bad. Earlier in the day I had fought off the temptation to eat a donut. Had to call my husband to "talk me down." Today I find myself immobilized...unable to accomplish anything except that I am Not Eating. The struggle feels unrelated to the success. The success does not ease the struggle.
Every day is hard. But some days are harder than others.
Hi Cindy,
ReplyDeleteWell this is certainly an appropriate picture! Sorry for the struggle. At my retreat they said that you can't climb a smooth mountain. The rough places are necessary for you to get a foot hold and push yourself up. It's a good visual for me. I met lots more people would love you, but then...who wouldn't love you???!
I know I do!
Your sister