I am really struggling.
Yesterday was a real food-fest. I was simply HUNGRY, and this time, I ate. Two hours after breakfast...STARVING. Two hours later, STARVING again. By the end of the day, I was just eating everything within reach.
I did record all this eating in my iPhone Weight Watchers app. Then after supper when I went to record my low-fat version of King Ranch Chicken, the app gave me a message, "You have not recorded any food or activity today" and my total was ZERO. Now, that's just annoying.
Then I read an article in a magazine last night about a study done in England. A group of dieters was asked to do consecutive days each week of low carb (less than 50), and the rest of the week to follow their normal healthy low-calorie diet. They lost twice as much weight as the group who was simply following the low-calorie diet!
I had already been thinking about cycling low carb days into my diet since I don't have hunger issues when I eat that way. Maintaining a low-carb lifestyle, however, is very difficult in the real world. Maybe eating low-carb a couple of days a week is the answer. I don't know. I only know I can't live with this constant stomach-growling-where's-the-food feeling!
Deliverance is what I am looking for. Deliverance from the overwhelming struggle. Why is it still so hard? Why can't I find an eating lifestyle that simply nourishes me and leaves my mind and body free to accomplish something other than NOT EATING TOO MUCH each day? I've been on this journey for ten months now..the longest I've ever managed to keep trying. Can I keep trying now? I want to! I'm scared. When I have felt like this during past efforts, this was the point where I gave up and just starting eating without boundaries again.
I guess the bottom line is that I am willing to do whatever it takes to keep going. If that means throwing in some low-carb days, so be it. Pray for me, please.