I love that people are always saying something to me about my weight loss. Their comments are encouraging, as I am sure they are meant to be.
It's odd, though. Lately when someone says something to me about how GREAT I look, I find myself wishing we could talk about something else. And then I want to eat a pizza or something.
This is obviously something I need to work on. I need to be able to deal with all the attention. I need to realize that when I achieve my goal, in many ways that accomplishment will define me. For the rest of my life. And people will talk about it.
Duh, you might say. What else did I expect? Why would such a thing bother me? Wouldn't everyone love to be the center of such positive attention?
All I can say is that if I had all my emotional cupcakes in a row, I wouldn't have gained all that weight in the first place. Or maybe sometimes the attention bothers me because I still have a long way to go to reach my goal, and I don't want to start the party just yet. Or, maybe, I get nervous about having to keep up the good job of losing weight (especially when it has been so tough lately.)
<sigh>
Note to self: Step AWAY from the pizza!
Anyway, thanks for listening.
Hugs.
Hi Cindy,
ReplyDeleteI can relate to how you feel. I feel that way about my teaching. After my first lecture last year, someone said, "Wow! That was great! The big challenge is that now you have to do it again!" I can tell you that that comment nearly completely shut me down. While it was definitely a compliment, it just made me feel defeated about continuing--like I could never do it that good again. Couldn't everyone just not notice or something and just leave me alone?! Ha. Talk about needing your emotional cupcakes in a row! (love that)
So I'm not going to say anything wonderful about what you've accomplished, even though you already know how I feel. :)
Love you and miss you,
Your sister