It was fun while it lasted. Too fun. Obviously. I guess I took a little diet vacation--with restraints.
Also, this week is going to be challenging. Today is my son's birthday. Tomorrow is our 29th anniversary. Wednesday is (please!) another fattening meal at church. Saturday is my birthday. Big week of celebrations. I need to go back to the safety net of counting points and enjoying my food life within those constraints.
I have to admit, I'm struggling. This is the longest I've ever stayed on a diet. Yea! I have to remember now that what I'm doing is NOT a diet, but a new way of life. The constant barrage of FOOD in our society, however, WEARS A PERSON DOWN. I hate to say it, but church is the worst place for me to be regarding my eating. Yesterday we welcomed new members with a giant cake which happened to be my favorite kind of cake in the whole world. When I saw it, I said out loud, "Step away from the cake!" and walked past it and directly to the car. Didn't even stay and visit. I've already decided I'm not going to attend the meal on Wednesday. There won't be anything there I can eat, or that I even want to eat.
I'm sitting here, writing, and it's dawning on me that this new way of life has the potential to separate me from some of my friends. Nothing simple about that realization! I'm just tired. Tired of saying no. Tired of constantly being in situations where I have to say no. Oh, yeah. "No, thank you."
Change...real change...is not simple. It's reasonable to expect that I'm going to mourn a bit along the way. So, I'm not discouraged by my sad mood this morning. In a way, I'm encouraged that I'm willing to endure the pain of these changes so that I can look forward to a healthier life. It's time to tell myself that everything is going to be okay.
Hugs.
And it is (everything IS going to be okay)!!!
ReplyDeleteI am glad that you tried the Simply Filling Plan
and had some success with it. Now you know that counting points is where you need to be at this moment in time and that's one thing we certainly know how to do, is count those points!
Congratulations are in order for all the upcoming events this week...just make the best choices possible and don't beat yourself up. You're living LIFE and there is no timeline in the journey to getting healthy. Sometimes slow and steady (with a bump here and there) wins the
race :0)
Remember how far you have come and hang in there...
Vicki
Hi Cindy,
ReplyDeleteDitto on what Vicki said! Slow and steady. A perfect plan.
A big week of blessings is what it sounds like to me! Happy Birthday, Ryan! Happy Anniversary! Happy Birthday, soon, to you! If you can get through the Christmas holidays and lose weight (which you did), you can certainly survive this week!!! And next week you'll be back in the pool!
Love, joy and peace to you dear sister,
Your sister