Tuesday, July 31, 2012
And now...it's time to face the music. I will be weighing in tomorrow for the first time in two weeks and I'm nervous. Hopefully the food choices I made during vacation were good ones, but I realize that I have come to rely on that daily weight feedback to keep me on track.
I am fully prepared (emotionally) to see a gain, and have pre-determined that whatever I see on the scale tomorrow, I'm going to get right back into my program and do all the things that work.
One of the things I realized while I was gone was that I have truly made a lifestyle change. In years past, I would have used being on vacation as an excuse to eat every fattening thing within reach, and then some. Even though it was difficult to stay on my program with the challenges of this trip, I never lost my desire to make better choices than I used to. But I also saw that, while I have made progress, I still have a long way to go.
And that is okay.
It's okay because I know that I am learning to live and eat differently than I did before. It's okay because I realize I will never "get there" completely, because there will always be challenges and vacations and holidays and special occasions. It's okay because I know I can always get "back to basics" and keep doing the best I can under whatever circumstances come my way.
I hope this is true learning and changing, and not just me making excuses for being less super-focused on my DIET! It does feel good, though, to make peace with the process, I don't know if any of this makes sense, but that's okay too. I've been in an airplane most of the day!