In her mind, her body wasn't acceptable for public viewing. She mentioned that she no longer wears shorts, but always covers herself with long pants and long dresses.
Episodes like this confuse me. I look at her and see absolutely nothing wrong. In fact, I look at her and realize that in my wildest dreams I will never be as thin or as pretty as she is. I truly have a hard time understanding how someone so beautiful can feel so insecure about how they look.
And yet, I try to be sympathetic. I do understand being uncomfortable with my body. I do understand feeling unacceptable to the world.
It makes me feel sad. It's such a waste. We miss out on so much of life because we stop ourselves from enjoying things because we're afraid of being judged by others for how we'll look doing those things. And of course, by "we" I mean "I". This is the mindset that has governed most of my life!
But mindsets can be changed. Life can be embraced! Beauty can be found in the doing, if not always the being. Maybe this is part of what Jesus meant when He said that He came so that we could have LIFE more ABUNDANTLY. I believe God wants us to engage in the life that He has given us, in whatever capacity is available to us. And that engaging, that act of truly living, is where real beauty resides.