Thursday, September 29, 2011
Up days, Down days
I was driving back home this afternoon from our property that we are getting ready to rent out, and I could barely keep my eyes open! This is not good. This is dangerous. I think I may have finally hit my physical and emotional limit.
The major clue I had to that effect was that when I got into the car to come home, I had an overwhelming desire to EAT SOMETHING FATTENING! This is always a danger sign. If I'm trying to cope with the things happening in my life with food, I'm doing something wrong. So, the question is, what am I doing wrong? And, where are the little powdered sugar donuts?
Okay, I didn't eat inappropriately. I did get a sugar free lemonade at Chick-Fil-A along with a 5-point ice cream cone there. A little treat within my daily points budget. Plenty of points left to use for dinner tonight. But right now, points are not the point. I really need to focus on my life and try to make sense of what's going on.
In the past I would have just eaten a couple of pizzas and quit worrying about it. But since I'm not using food to numb myself any more I have to actually face the issue. But I don't know what the issue is.
I'll have to get back to you on that.