Thursday, September 29, 2011

Up days, Down days

And, today is a down day.

I was driving back home this afternoon from our property that we are getting ready to rent out, and I could barely keep my eyes open!  This is not good.  This is dangerous.  I think I may have finally hit my physical and emotional limit.

The major clue I had to that effect was that when I got into the car to come home, I had an overwhelming desire to EAT SOMETHING FATTENING!  This is always a danger sign.  If I'm trying to cope with the things happening in my life with food, I'm doing something wrong.  So, the question is, what am I doing wrong?  And, where are the little powdered sugar donuts?

Okay, I didn't eat inappropriately.  I did get a sugar free lemonade at Chick-Fil-A along with a 5-point ice cream cone there.  A little treat within my daily points budget.  Plenty of points left to use for dinner tonight.  But right now, points are not the point.  I really need to focus on my life and try to make sense of what's going on. 

In the past I would have just eaten a couple of pizzas and quit worrying about it.  But since I'm not using food to numb myself any more I have to actually face the issue.  But I don't know what the issue is. 

I'll have to get back to you on that.

1 comment:

  1. You did it again! You made it over another rough spot. I am praying for you my precious sister.
    Call me today if you have time. I promise not to keep you on the phone 2hours!
    Love you


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