Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Accidentally Changing on Purpose
Now, I'm changing....and it surprises me!
At the beginning, I suppose I was just focused on getting rid of all the extra layers of fat on my body. It wasn't so much that I wanted to be thin, I just didn't want to be fat any more. 161 sticks of butter later, I'm achieving that goal. But along the way other things--unexpected things--are changing. For example:
I want to exercise, and get frustrated when I can't.
I actually enjoy eating fresh, healthy food instead of donuts and cakes and cheeseburgers.
I no longer feel out of control around food.
I'm learning to live life in gratitude toward my loving Lord instead of feeling angry and afraid most of the time.
For the first time in my life and in all my dieting efforts, I believe I can reach my goal weight!
The thought occurs to me...what other changes are in store for me on this journey? What other surprises am I going to find along the way? It's kind of exciting! It makes me want to seek out more changes, to pursue them more purposefully. It's like for so many years I was just in limbo, waiting for my life to start. Now I'm living my life and enjoying the process..even the sick days and set-backs.
Can't wait to see what happens next!