But I remembered that when I started all this a year ago, I had realized that in order to have any success at all, I needed to really change the way I look at life and eating and moving around.
The last few weeks have been difficult, in part, because I have been resisting those very necessary changes. I have been missing my old behaviors, and some of the foods I used to eat. I got tired of the effort of trying to do something different, and began to doubt that I could really achieve a different kind of life. I have also gotten tired of feeling different from everyone else, especially when it SEEMS like everyone else is eating the way I'd like to eat, but know I can't.
So, can I really change? The answer is YES! I know this is true because I have already changed in many ways. And because of these changes, I know I can continue to change in a positive way in the future. The reality, however, is that changing isn't always easy. Or fun. There is another reality that is even more important: Change is possible if you just keep trying. I'm going to keep trying. I'm going to hang in there. I'm going to get through this frustrating, boring, and irritating time that I'm going through and look forward to a future of positive changes. Then I can look back on this yucky, un-fun time and know that I'm capable of riding out those times when they come...and go.
Hugs.
Hi Cindy,
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I was just typing up some highlights from Billy Graham's new book, "Life, Faith and Finishing Well". The part I read right before reading your blog made me think of you. He's talking about our society wanting instant success, an easy way to accomplish something. Billy Graham says,
"The truth is that instant success robs people of the journey; but it is along the journey that we obtain knowledge, collect memories and have a sense of achievement that makes life a rewarding experience."
You have called your path a "journey" so many times. He talks a lot about how others are watching us as we travel on our journeys. Thank you for your honesty and including us in your journey.
I can't wait to see what is in store on the next segment of your path!
Love you,
Your sister