Looks like I've come through the storm and indeed, the sun is shining at least one more day. I am learning that some times in my life just have to be "gotten through". What seems impossible to deal with on a given day becomes more bearable with prayer, time and contemplation.
And in the meantime, I am also learning not to numb myself with too much food on those seemingly impossible days, which only trades one misery for another.
I cannot say I have made it all the way to joy, but I do feel a sense of contentment because I haven't been smothering my sorrows with inappropriate eating. Looking back, I can see that times I have turned to food in the past were often times when I was unhappy and didn't know what to do about it. I needed to do SOMETHING, ANYTHING, to feel in control of an uncontrollable circumstance.
Or, I might have said to myself, "This isn't going my way so I'm going to eat this donut! That'll show 'em!" Makes absolutely no sense. Yet, this was my mindset. Maybe the most important thing I am learning through this journey is that external emotional circumstances in my life are totally unrelated to keeping myself healthy and what I choose to eat.
In my book, that's pretty sun-shiny information.
Hugs.
Hi Cindy,
ReplyDeleteWhat a relief to see this post! Every time I have thought about you these last few days I have been singing your song..."The sun will come out, mañana." I'm so happy that it did.
Hope to talk to you tomorrow. We're home now, broken ankle and all!
Love you,
Your sister