Some days are a breeze. Others, like today, are a struggle. It's 10:25pm and I am HUNGRY. But I'm also "pointless". So no more food for me today.
But it's never boring. I never know what to expect from one day to the next. I don't seem to be "settling in" to a predictable day-to-day dieting existence. The only thing I can figure is that my body is really changing, and I'm bound to feel the effects of that. It affects how I feel physically, mentally and emotionally. But here's the cool thing: the roller coaster is not tripping me up. I'm not running to food every time I feel insecure or confused. I still can't get over that. Oh, I'm tempted. I've even stood in front of the pantry a few times. But I know..I really KNOW...that eating off my plan will only make me feel worse. It's like, I still have the habit of wanting to turn to food for comfort, but I've broken the habit of actually doing it.
It only took 56 years.
There's really only one explanation for this major change in my life. I'm getting help! I must be. I believe God has fundamentally changed how I look at food. I am a new creation, and am becoming a new creation, thanks to Him. To God be the Glory! With His help, I can keep taking those little steps, day by unpredictable day.
I had something really profound to say when I tried to post earlier. Something about climbing steep hills, one foot in front of the other, even the pause in front of the pantry didn't throw you off. So instead of profound, this is random!
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Your sister
Hi Cindy,
ReplyDeleteI have been following your blog, and I have to say how amazing and inspiring you are. I am praying that God gives you the strength and the will to keep on going towards your goal.
Your friend and sister in Christ,
Susan Hemme
Hi Cindy,
ReplyDeleteI have been following your blog, and I have to say how amazing and inspiring you are. I am praying that God gives you the strength and the will to keep on going towards your goal.
Your friend and sister in Christ,
Susan Hemme
Hi Cindy,
ReplyDeleteI have been following your blog, and I have to say how amazing and inspiring you are. I am praying that God gives you the strength and the will to keep on going towards your goal.
Your friend and sister in Christ,
Susan Hemme
Don't forget all those zero-point foods! My favorites are the little baby carrots... a little bit sweet and a lot crunchy. Or even a nice little juicy/tart apple. Keep up the good work! You inspire me!
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