I Don't Deserve This...

When I started this blog, I didn't know what to expect.  I didn't really expect anybody to read it. 

But there you are, reading it!  Every time one of you posts a comment I am humbled and amazed.  I am humbled and amazed when one of you sees me and says, "I've been following your blog."  Even if you don't let me know that you're out there reading, I am humbled and amazed that you are!

I want you to know it makes a difference.  Every day, when I wake up and start making decisions about what I'm going to do and think about and eat, I'm also thinking about all of you.  Your presence gives me strength, especially in those difficult moments when I might be facing, oh, a basket hot cheddar cheese biscuits at Red Lobster.  I think about you, and it's easier to push the biscuits away.  I feel your support and your encouragement all day long.

This is a new experience for me.  I've felt so alone for so long, and I've never expected anyone to care enough about my little problems to walk along with me like this.  And yet, the Bible teaches us that we are to share one another's burdens.  It makes total sense that we can't expect any help if we don't let anyone know we need help.  I shared my burden with you, and you are supporting me...thank you!  But more than that, it occurs to me that what you are doing is modeling God's love and grace.  You are living examples of the way God loves us all...we don't deserve it but He's right there anyway.  This has to be part of His Grand Plan, that we show the world who He is by how we care for each other.

Thank you for caring for me.